Divorce and raising my children

December 26th 1999- I received a call from the county court offices asking me to come sign papers. I was thinking it was more paperwork for the divorce law judge, I got the kids ready and went to my moms and dropped off Heidi and Eric with her, Michael stayed with me, he would very Rarely allow anyone to watch him so he was as thy say connected at the hip. we drove to the court offices and went in, The lad in the window asked why we were there, Her name was Wendy. I explained I had gotten a phone call to stop in and fill out some paperwork for the Law Judge. She asked my name a told her, she left the room and came back with a smile on her face, she said your not here to sign papers for the Law Judge, your here to sign your final divorce decree. "your divorce is final she stated" I wanted to be happy, but the fact was a little part
of me was sad, I was going to be a divorcee today. My children,. "what would they think?"  did I fail them? I loved my children with all of my heart and soul! they are and have always been my life. I didn't know what my future held for them, but I wanted to give them a more stable life. this is their childhood and they will never have this time back. I had so many questions in my head, but the only thing that could answer them is time. I knew deep down it was for the best. I looked through the paperwork before signing, I was only 23 years old but had grown so much and so fast that I had learned not to sign anything without looking first, I left this marriage with nothing but the clothes on my back and my children thats all I wanted... those were the only things that mattered to me. like I said my children are my life and I wanted to protect them. the Law Judge had granted me full custody and gave Aaron Liberal visitation. he is supposed to give me 48 hours notice before seeing the kids. (didn't realise he wouldn't follow the rules)
As of today it was just me and my kids. Today is day 1 for us. so that is my divorce story, I won't write a lot of detail about my ex because I want to spare my children some hurt that I went through. This is the end of this chapter and i will start the next one.